Despite photographic evidence to the contrary (teehee) I am no angel. I mean, I try to be good. I really sincerely to try. I just don't always succeed.
Since I was a little girl, each night before I fall asleep I kind of mentally review my day. I feel grateful for everything positive and I make note of the things I could do better. And every night, I vow that tomorrow, I will try harder. And I mean it sincerely when I say it.
And still, after all these years, I am not yet the person I would like to be. I need to be more patient. I need to be more disciplined. I need to listen more than speak. I need to be more thoughtful, more considerate, more generous. And I will continue to work on this massive Sam-project as my life moves forward.
But I still will not make any New Year's resolutions. As we near the end of 2017, I know that I'm supposed to start thinking about that list. But I refuse to do it. While I am quite aware of my failings, thank you, and I know that I am an eternal work in progress, I stubbornly will not obey an arbitrarily chosen date to deadline myself to a certain behavior. That smacks of futility. I do not want to start a brand new year listing my numerous flaws, promising to once and for all be done with all of them and then immediately lose that battle. Too Depressing for words.
Rather, I would like to focus on positives.
I try very hard to be kind. And I will try even harder in this new year. I try very hard to eat goodies in moderation. And I will work on that even more in 2018. I exercise at least a little bit every day. Next year, I will try to increase that bit a little more.
Kind of like that.
Realistic expectations is the secret to happiness. I think being happy should be at the top of everyone's goal list for every year.
I am no angel. But I'm trying very hard to be the best human I can be. Next year, I will try a little bit harder.
Yup, this is me. Some people said, "Sam, you should write a Blog". "Well, there's a thought", I thought to myself. And so here it is.